Do you know I think I have shot myself in the foot by deciding to have and maintain my own blog on www.missyd.com! When I first started it I was really excited, and now I am even more excited due to all the publicity and love that it receives. So thank you and bless you for that. Why did I say I have felt like I have shot myself in the foot starting this up? Well you see I sometimes have to think really hard about what to write and not what to write!
I was told a blog is yours. The person who owns it has the right to write and say what they want. That excited me. To some extent that is what I have done in my career in radio and has made me popular as a presenter! Often people would tell me the reason they loved me on the radio and as a presenter, is because I was ‘real’ and there were no pretences with me. I just said it how it was. This was a good thing and also a bad thing. Trust me. I know the consequences of both! I have sometimes been too honest and ‘real’ for my own good.
So there have been many times I’ve sat here and wrote straight from the heart and though there is no way that I can’t put that up on my blog, and so don’t and go with something completely different. But then I think that is me, so why shouldn’t I? But usually sense kicks in and I do what I think is less offensive to the world and society.
I am going to try and paint a picture for you, for you to kind of understand the person that I am. I am a public person. I am on the radio, and many of you know me from my radio personality and have loved that person. You know loud and dead proud and happy and bubbly! Thank you for that. But ‘off-air’ there is a different side to me that most people do not see. Don’t worry it’s not weird and I’m just as normal as you! I guess some of the real me, you have encountered on the radio, and I have been told not to get so emotional on-air. But I always though why should I pretend to be somebody that I am not?! Do not get me wrong, I am not fake on the radio, I just try not to be so ‘real’. The reason for this is that like I said, it can and has got me into all sorts of trouble ‘off’ and ‘on’-air.
You see, I am a very open and real person. An intense person. I am extremely emotional. I can be very deep. I can be very hard to understand. I am really not your ‘average’ kind of person. But I think that most people in entertainment have this double-life and have an element of different-ness in them. Otherwise I don’t think they would want to be so much in the public eye (or public ear in my case!). I have to admit that I do love who I am. I wouldn’t change me for the world. But sometimes it takes others around me a hell of a long time to understand me. Sometimes they just never do! But that’s ok, because I am who I am! I just follow my heart and do what I think is right in ‘My World’.
Usually when people first meet me, after a while of knowing me they say that when they first met me, they thought I would be so hard to get along with. They found me unapproachable and not someone that was easy going. After a few days with me, they realised how wrong they were! With me, you get what I am. I will give you 100% of me or 0% of me. Nothing in between. If you are lucky enough to be offered the 100% to me, then I will go out of my way to give you and do for you anything that I possibly can in life to ensure you are happy and well looked after. I love and give unconditionally and will die for those who I love and care for. That’s just me. To many it may seem over the top, and I did at one point in my life think ‘am I weird’? “Doesn’t everyone operate like me?” Thank the Lord, I found a few people that are like me! Not a lot I must admit, but have come across others in my life that do understand how I am like this and why I am like this, and they are exactly the same, and they love being them too.
I don’t know if it’s maybe the best way in life, because I get hurt way too often as a result of being the person that I am. But I like being who I am and wouldn’t want to change me for the world. Why? Well I would rather be loving, giving, caring, sharing, deep and intense without holding back (with the added sarcastic sense of humour, confusion, comedian side and a sprinkling of entertainment), then someone who is not.
I am who I am and proud of who I am. And anyway who makes up the rules?? Be real to yourself and just be you! A friend of mine used to always say, “just be you”. So I was and always have been. Each time I tried to be who others wanted me to be, thingsalways didn’t seem to go right. But hey sometimes just being being has also had others up in arms and they would just never get me and the way I think, work, operate and live in ‘My World’. I think everyone has ‘a World’ and as long as you are happy to be in that world then good for you!
So who are you? How would you describe you? Have you the nerve to spill all here and be honest and truthful? I always feel that just by being honest and truthful to yourself and to the world, it kind of cleanses the heart and soul. So don’t hold back. Who are the hell are you? x